I’ve written a bit about CBD on this blog, but this is going to be my testament towards CBD and how helpful it’s been for me in the long run.
CBD most definitely changed my life.
Anyone who’s met me in real life knows that I’m a giant ball of anxiety. I work on that every year and get closer to being more “normal” and not give off such anxious vibes, and CBD has made a big impact on that.
What CBD Is and Isn’t
CBD is something I use along side the medications prescribed to me by my mental health doctors. I don’t use it as a substitute at all. What CBD is, is a way to supplement my current routine to add a way for me to focus, not panic as much, and be overall more laid back.
CBD isn’t a miracle cure.
It’s not going to cure all your problems, it definitely doesn’t cure cancer, and it’s not going to be for everyone.
However, if you want to give CBD a go, check out my initial post on it: My Experience With CBD Oil: Is it Worth It?
If you’re looking for reputable brands to give CBD a try, check out this master post of retailers from reddit (with free coupon codes!) My favorite so far is CBDistillery but they stopped selling vape cartridges which means I have to find a new place to get my CBD.
The reason I’m writing this post is because I made a mistake and accidentally reformatted my external hard drive, erasing everything that was currently on it. That had stuff going back to 2011, maybe even more, on it. I was naturally devastated.
But what I didn’t do was throw a fit.
When my anxiety gets the best of me it’s very easy for me to go into a fit where I basically panic so badly that I start acting erratically. One time I had an anxiety fit so bad I threw something and it hit my printer, cracking part of the touchscreen.
These fits usually make everything become harder to do. With how small my room is now, I would be tripping over things, falling into my lamp, and just getting more and more frustrated over every little thing that went wrong.
I would have started having a panic attack where my heart rate would go up, I would become more irritable, and overall just not pleasant, even to myself.
It would make trying to figure out how to fix the problem 10 times worse.
I’ve been using CBD heavily lately. It’s been part of my daily routine and it’s probably become my newest addiction of sorts. I need something to do with my hands now that I’ve been drinking coffee and not sleeping all day (thanks depression!), and vaping my CBD oil is the best thing for me.
So that whole fiasco never happened. I just googled what I needed to do, found software to help recover the lost files, and I’ve been downloading them onto my laptop in chunks ever since.
There was no yelling, no swearing, no throwing things out of the way. Nothing.
Just complete bliss and contentment.
That’s what CBD is meant to do: keep you calm enough to think straight.
And it worked!
While I’m impatiently waiting for the files to load (I had almost 70k files on a 1TB external) that’s the worst of what’s happened.
CBD changed my life by giving me a second chance at life without as much anxiety. Yes, I have the medication to thank as well, but without the CBD added I wouldn’t have had a response like I did. I know how I react with just the medication. It’s like my high school years all over again.
Besides making me calm enough to think through my problems instead of just blindly panicking, it also helps with my sleep.
If you have anxiety or any kind of disorder that keeps you up at night, you know how hard it can be to not just fall asleep, but stay asleep.
Even with my nighttime meds I still have issues staying asleep. There are nights when I wake up 4-5 times just to go to the bathroom, and there are other nights where for a week straight I’ll just wake up at 3am for no reason and not be able to go back to sleep.
With CBD in my life it helps me get tired and stay tired.
My sleeping hasn’t been better with CBD in my life. It’s been the best thing to happen to me so far and that’s not saying much.
With improved sleep I now have energy to do things in the morning, though the depression can take hold and make me sleep all day and all night. It also helps that I’ve added coffee to my diet. That gets me out of bed and kickstarts my day pretty quickly.
But I wouldn’t have had the energy to make that coffee if it weren’t for CBD. I can’t say enough good things about it. CBD changed my life.
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